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| Sarah F. Gaynor |
This person was the hardest person to have
to live with. Sarah Gaynor is a slut. The worst kind of slut, because she used sex to get away with murder. Honestly, I just didn't like her. Game can peep game
and she came to me and talked to me one night before bed. I think she was
actually hitting on me, but she tried to tell me about the peanut butter, too.
See, at the Forensic Center, it's beneficial for you to be crazy.
They were putting a bit of LSD in our food at times. It made Sarah
have bad dreams. I don't know, but for some reason I had bad dreams that
night. I don't think Sarah mind the Adderal, it is similar to the feeling
cocaine gives you. She told me some stories that mirrored the true
stories of me and another inmate I helped write an important letter to exit
the Forensic Center. She was jealous, because she was ready to go. I heard she gave the best "blow jobs". This meant that Sarah had been informed thoroughly about me, before
I got back there. This was my second trip to the Forensic Center on a case that I beat. Probably by Matt, security personnel that had a quickie with a woman that burnt her two children alive, because her new boyfriend thought they were a nuisance.
Sarah knew I wasn't "insane" and
that's what I meant by game peeping game. Somewhere in my heart, I think
she was trying to help me or find a friend in me. Her case had her wanting to get close to a Black person, because her BFF Amy was leaving, soon. What she told me next would ruin our
relationship, forever. She said she was involved in a car crash while
intoxicated. I think intoxication includes drugs and alcohol. She
had been found with actual drugs and alcohol in her system. A Black man
had been killed in the crash and burned alive. His family was mad she got an
NGRI. Not Guilty by Reason of Insanity. I was mad, too, because Sarah is
not mentally ill. Like Amy, they had just given her a free ride.
Her psychiatrist, a man who she spends 45 minutes with in a conference
room, is about to let her out. I don't know exactly what they do in the conference room, but knowing Sarah it was probably some kind of sex act.
She also told me that his family was upset
she was at the Forensic Center and not doing time in prison. They say there is
nothing wrong with her, and I agree. As you know while in prison, they
made me live amongst those who are mentally ill, in order to keep me out of trouble.
It wasn't that hard, because they were usually more involved with who
they are not, to just leave you alone. Unless they are worrisome, and
there were a few of them. I was very doped up and couldn't really tell
the difference, anyway. But I know the signs, especially those of a
schizophrenic. Of all the disorders in mental illness, it is the most
tormenting. Seeing things and hearing things that aren't there is
horrible and you can't stand it. Medication is usually not solace for
schizophrenia. The people I know still have signs and symptoms while on their medication.
Schizophrenics have no control of it.
A lying crooked psychiatrist would tell you there is, but I know there is
not. Sarah's medication couldn't help her act normally, and she act real normal, and not like any schizophrenic I know. They aren't social butterflies like Sarah and Amy, walking the gym
holding hands and getting dates from men who live there. They are shamed usually and bothered by their illness and most of the time are solitary people. They don't stand up in group and raise their hand and say, "I have bad dreams" But I think Sarah is ready to leave the Forensic Center, one way or the
other. Mostly she wants to go to a step-down like Amy, but it's only been
a year. Except,"Vehicular Homicide" doesn't carry as much time
as "Open Murder". So, a year versus Amy's two is just about
right. When you talk on the scale of prostitution for a prison sentence...I guess.
So, one day when Sarah was going through
our DVD Collection, and asked who wanted to watch "Men in Black" and
Matt -the FSA that has sex with child killers- started laughing, I lost it. I cursed her out, and called her and
Amy sluts. Told her that she was a murderer and deserved to go to prison.
She smiled, but two weeks later decided that she was terribly upset with
me. She used that an excuse not to go to groups that she wasn't
attending, anyway. Before I got there, and discovered that she was a
fake, Sarah didn't do anything she didn't want to do. All she had to do
is have sex.
That's when she went to every White racist
employee and told them that I was threatening her. I was being watched
and they told Sarah if there was ever a problem that they need to seek relief
from staff. Nothing was going on, and the staff started to get the
picture. Then Sarah was in trouble, but not much, he was quickly becoming
their only money maker. Amy was leaving soon. When Amy did leave,
she started blaming all her short comings on Amy. "I wasn't a nice
person, because Amy told me not to talk to you all." She lied, she
did what she wanted; don't blame Amy when she leaves. When it was Amy in
group, while she was there that said Sarah wasn't going to let go of our
animosity. Amy didn't understand why Sarah was so bitter and vindictive,
because she was raised in a kind loving home and had all she wanted, love and
materialistically.
Sarah admitted she suffered from what is
known as hysteria. It's a personality disorder that causes a person to
seek attention. I can believe that, because Sarah used our situation to
get the entire staff against me and on her side. I thought I was in a bad
movie, like "Single White Female." Then when Amy left, she came
to everybody she had treated like the dork class in high school and made
amends. That included me, because we were all ready to treat her really
bad. If it wasn't for her fellow prostitute who hadn't left, she would
have never won President. Amy had the job before she left. We had
it set-up for another woman to get it, but a new woman split the vote.
Although, we all knew why Amy and Sarah
were getting so much attention, we sorta could stomach Amy a little more.
She is a bit older and street wise, and understood that she had been
given a gift and not to "rock the boat". Sarah treated us all
like we were in high school. She was the Molly Ringwald of South 4.
Remember, in "The Breakfast Club", she was the elite and didn't
have to treat people nicely or with respect. There was a pecking order
and she was at the top of the food chain. Amy tried to teach her, but
found the idea she was from privilege, to disregard her ignorance. I
really didn't blame.
When Amy left, they tried to lie and say
she was in Kalamazoo. The family of the man that she killed is out to get
her, so they say. Sarah kept up the charade and told us that Amy was
talking to one of her boyfriends at Kalamazoo. An old patient, however,
wrote to a women still at the Forensic Center. She told her that she
heard that Amy was with her. I hope this makes you understand how the
White race in Oakland County truly knows how good they have it. They
don't care, they don't see and Sarah doesn't understand that she killed a man
while drinking and on drugs. I told her that my friend Chrissy got 13
years for doing what she did. She stares into space, and I think and counts
how many more men she has to sleep with before she can escape. How many
more Friday's she has to spend with Dr. Saragoza in a conference room.
To let you know how unaware Sarah is, or
it could be that she is just too young. She told me, "I'm sorry, I'm
scared of Black people." I reiterated her point and said,
"There are some Black people that I'm afraid of. There are also some
Whites I am afraid of, too. Fear has no color." I believe that
Sarah is prejudice, and that's why she underestimated me. As a 21 year old
woman, she believed she could out-fox me. I'm a 42 year old Black woman
from the hood. That was very doubtful, but as I've said, Sarah is not
that smart. She uses her body to get what she wants, which is sad but
gets her that all important attention she craves. Just like shaking her
leg and hand when she drinks her coffee. Just another fake-out.
I once watched her simulate oral sex on a
candy cane, when a staff member showed me some attention. He was alright,
but Sarah and Amy had been trying to get him for months. For some reason
he found me interesting. Sarah sat at a table and did a imitation of deep
throat. I was so shocked. See, now Amy put her up to that!
This is what her local paper had to say
about Sarah:
I recently messaged Sarah on Facebook. She
replied, "What do you want from me?" I answered, "did I ask you for
anything" Then I blocked her. The woman in the article said that she
suffered from mental illness. Sarah has histrionics. She'll do and say anything
to get attention. That's why she is so promiscuous. You can get a lot of
attention having sex with a lot of men. She was world renowned in the State run
Forensic Center and a pro at the Saginaw Valley Hospital where she had weekly
appointments with the staff. I was with her twice when Chuck took her;
allegedly!
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