Dr. Saragoza

Dr. Philip Saragoza
Psychiatrist Center for Forensic Psychology

This man is more than a trip.  He eluded me the first time I went to the Forensic Center.  He is a psychiatrist who works really hard to stay out of the light, because he is rotten to the core.  This is the man who has sex with Sarah and says that she has schizophrenia to allow her to get away with vehicular homicide.  He stands about five foot six inches tall and for a little man is as rotten as they come.  He trades his professional expertise for sex with his patients.  He is married with children.  I told you that the one way they get women to prostitute is to have them be grateful for their short stay, versus a long stay in prison.  I also said that they only allow women who are less threatening to stay there.  Hard core killers and murderers can't stay.  If what you did was unspeakable, then you must go to prison.

This is the place that Saragoza works best.  He can evaluate a woman and tell her actually threat level.  Nobody knows like I know how ornery this man can be.  This is the doctor that Sarah Foster Gaynor spent 45 minutes with on Friday afternoons.  I used to sit and watch the door.  When I began to write and tell about their tryst, he stopped and Sarah seemed relieved, but I'm gone now.  It is Friday and I'm sure they were locked in that conference room, today.  He is really good and thinks she is in love with him.  In reality, she just wants to go home.  She's always embarrassed when she comes out and I'm sitting right there waiting for her.

Sarah's main pimp is Koz, and I think he gets paid for Saragoza and Sarah's sex acts.  Koz would never  let anyone get away with not paying.  He doesn't care if he signs the paperwork to keep her there or not.  Koz is a short man who tries to compensate for his small statue by having a horrible attitude.  He is the second most person, in my list, of people whose food I refuse to eat.  He was so greedy, he would work without pay and spend the entire night upstairs trying to sell the patients.  Compared to Flueter who tries to get free oral sex, Koz is a beast.

So, Saragoza would never get away without paying or maybe he does.  Koz will let him have freebies if he makes Sarah stay a little longer.  That's always the game, to make the women stay there longer and they are all Saragoza's patients.  He get all the women who prostitute and he is the reason why they have to stay.  Then the Social Workers have to be on his page, which is easy.  He is mean, but he never scared me.  After I cussed Amy and Sarah out, he came to me.  I told him that he wasn't my doctor and that I didn't have to talk to him.  He got his meanest look on his face and told me that I was trying to get control.  He was really mad, because I was on to his little faking patient scam.

When I finished telling him that I didn't want to talk to him, after we talked he left.  He overheard me talking to another patient about what happened and called my doctor.  The reason why I was talking to him is because my doctor was off.  I wasn't taking medication at the time and he told her that he thought it would be the best thing.  She agreed, but never gave me anything past the 5mg of Abilify he had given me.  See, the last time I was there I had an intern, who was finishing some clinicals.  She was under Saragoza and I'm positive that he had her giving me more medication than I needed.  He is really good at doing his best to make me submissive.  It didn't work, just like the wiping off of the keys by Joyce.

He and Charlie like to act as if they aren't buddies, but they are both pimps of a different kind.  One is an educated pimp and one is an uneducated pimp, but they are both pimps and whore-mongers.  They prey on women who are vulnerable from committing crimes, who would never commit a crime under under normal circumstances.  Then they exploit there drug addiction and allow the FSA's to sell them.  That the way it goes at the Forensic Center.  Life is a big ole bowl of sex!

Mark Hackel: Neutral?

Mark Hackel

I watched the news today and I heard something that was interesting.  Mark Hackel says that he was going to remain neutral on the upcoming Governors race.  It seems that the Obama administration is coming under attack over things they've done to the most hated people in America.  Namely the Associated Press, and the IRS going after the Tea-Party.  He is also going to replace Robert Mueller with a Republican.  Put on top of that the fact that one of the oldest and influential Republicans in America, L. Brooks Patterson, will have to answer for a prostitution ring being run out of his county's jail and Obama has problems.  If I were Mark Hackel, I would stay out of this mess, too.

I think that even if the FBI refuses to answer my letters and the Department of Justice refuses to give me a hand, our Federal Government sat back and watched me almost lose my mind.  In my opinion, that isn't at all humble, the Republicans have been getting away with a lot of illegal activities in this country for quite a while.  They are racist, in humane and a money hungry bunch.  Their stand on immigration to me stems from a need for cheap labor in the work places in America, only they want to control it and not give them the full American experience.  For Republicans, it's all about the money and big business.  Since they believe that Obama is coming after their illegal money, they are coming after him and will ruin the last leg of his Presidency.

Remember, Patterson was very good friends with Knollenberg, who was a Senator in Washington, forever.  I bet he still has friends there who will protect his interest when times get tough.  I always believed that drugs aren't the Republicans only illegal racket in this country, and it seems that he is going after a few more and probably a dozen smaller ones like the whorehouse that is Oakland County Jail.  Hackel is a smart man and unlike me, understands that this thing is far bigger than he is.  Unlike Obama who doesn't really care about their attacks, because his job is almost over, he can be County Executive for as long as he wishes or as long as the people re-elect him. 

Unlike Bouchard and Napoleon, Hackel feeds his inmates and he doesn't sell them.  The women at Oakland County go to Macomb and cry, because they want to go back.  The food isn't excellent, but it's not the dog food we are fed in Oakland County Jail.  You can actually go to jail and get a break from the whoring and hustling you do on the street.  You can also get a break from deputies who think of you as a tool that can be used for their own enjoyment.  That includes the men and the women who subject the women to their sexual deviance. 

A few weeks ago there was a so-called bomb scare at Pontiac High School.  To show their solidarity to Bouchard, the Michigan State Investigators came out and the FBI made a showing for a 14 year old with a make shift bomb.  These same men refused to come to the Forensic Center when I wrote and told them they were tainting my food with Adderall.  When you are 14, you bake a cake and ask your mother a million questions and it still comes out "tasting funny".  First, I don't believe the bomb was real.  Just like the million dollars worth of drugs they found hidden in the wall of a home in Pontiac, when OCSD first took over our streets.  It's all smoke screens and mirrors.  Don't ever get me wrong, just because the FBI is the FBI, don't ever think that I believe they all are fair and honest.

This is what Mark Hackel knows, and he is scared.  His jail is free of a racket and he is working to control the finances of his county.  Who needs a bunch of dirty ass Republicans digging in your business trying to mess it up, because they are slimy and crooked.  I've always said that the crooked police are far scarier than any criminal you could meet in a back alley at night.  Snyder took Hackel's neutrality as an endorsement, but I don't believe it is.  I think if it was up to Mark Hackel, he would bury his face in the sand and do his own business while the world goes on around him.  It reminds me of Driving Miss Daisy, when her son was fed up with her fighting him.  Dan Akroyd's character told her, "...take your blessed trolley.  Just leave me out of it!"  Hackel wants to be left alone.  He surely wants to see if the Democrats are going to be able to hold their own under the scrutiny of drug cartels and pimps.

A criminal would rather kill you than end his money making enterprise.  We in the religious world know that doesn't literally mean a physical death, but a death of your hopes and dreams.  Hackel gets it and doesn't know where this Schuaer is going.  Will he continue this crusade to end the rackets of the Republican Party, or just let "sleeping dogs lie"?  It is very hard to fight people who are willing and able to fight for corruption.  I'm just a nobody, and they sent me to the nuthouse.  What do you think they will do to a man with power who has so much to lose.  Poor Eric Holder is about to exit stage right from Washington, if the Republicans have their way about it.

I wrote the FBI and nobody will ever be able to tell me that they didn't listen.  Nobody could ever tell me that they didn't already know.  The idea that they deny me and give me no voice, doesn't mean that they are ignoring what is going on.  At the same time, the crooked FBI is also in the game and they have their cronies who seek to move me to the other side.  Maybe that will happen to Hackel, and maybe he will be able to survive.  I, however, have never seen a player be able to stay neutral in a game.  Can you see a person standing in the middle of the gym, not picking any side in a dodge ball game?  That person would get hit by both sides.  Showing indifference gives the GOP hope that they have a player.  It tells the Democrats that you are "wishy-washy" and can't be trusted.  Hackel would say that he is keeping an open mind.  I say he's afraid!

Schauer for Governor

Main Street Mania: IST v. NGRI

There are two ways you can live at the Forensic Center.  The first, is that you come there IST.  It is an acronym for "Incompetent to Stand Trial".  That's what I was both times I went there.  That means that you have a mental illness that impedes you in either understanding your case, assisting in your defense or acting properly in court.  The first time I was there, it was supposed to be a question if I had a mental illness or not.  This last time, I was supposed to have a mental illness.  I guess it slipped past my psychiatrist the first time I was there.  Then you can go NGRI, and as I've explained that means that you are not guilty, because at the time of your crime your mental illness impeded your ability to know exactly what you were doing.  How and why you have sex is different, depending on why you are there.

The women with an NGRI have an obligation to have multiple sex partners.  They have to have to prostitute in order to go home.  This means they could be having sex with people from the outside, staff members or other patients.  These women are expected to go out on Main Street and get "boyfriends".  Those who are IST, don't have to have sex with anyone, unless they want to.  The women who are IST have sex with staff members for drugs or just for fun.  Mostly they only have one partner, because they usually don't stay there that long.  A person who is IST, stays only about four months under normal circumstances.  When they begin having sex with a staff member, the psychologist and psychiatrist feel that they don't want to leave and keep them there longer.  They would just come to South 4 and stare at you.  That meant that they wanted you, and were willing to pay.

From my last blog, you could assume that they only give NGRI's to people they deem as harmless to society; like me.  They put hardcore murderers in prison, and they think they are helping to protect society.  They need women in South 4, in order to keep a job.  If there are no women, then there is no work and they have no job.  Most of the people who get NGRI's are people they really like, too, and who would be able to articulate The Center as a stellar place to receive treatment.  That only after they agree to have sex and use drugs while there.

Main Street is interesting.  When you go out there, any man you talk to thinks that you want to make him a "boyfriend".  You sit and talk for a while and they get excited and start insinuating that you want to have sex with them.  It's not just the male patients, but people who come there from the outside.  Students from the University of Michigan come to The Center, because it's part of their Psychology course.  Some of the young men were really angry with me, because they remember the year before they got to party with the women around the time they came for "Project Outreach".  I wasn't interested and therefore the women couldn't pick-up dates while I was out there.  I would be able to know exactly what they were doing. So, they never wanted me to go out there.  In fact, Mr. Barry Davis had a list made with all the women who could go out to Main Street for "Project Outreach".

Now, just like the prison system there are 10 times the number of men at The Center than women.  At the time of "Project Outreach" there was 250 men to barely 20 women.  What need would there be for a list of women who could attend the classes with the U of M students on Main Street?  There was none, except they wanted to control who was there.  Making sure that the women who would cooperate and have sex with the students were there, and people like me weren't.  This would insure that this month was a money making venue.

I know you wonder where all this sex takes place.  South 4 is stationed between South 2 and South 3, but South 3 is empty.  If you get a boyfriend, who you have sex with on a regular basis, then he will move to South 2, and you will meet in the middle, in South 3.  There is a whole floor with about 20 empty rooms.  If your just having sex to work off an NGRI, then the men travel across the building in the middle of the night to South 3.  They use the rooms that are upstairs for both male on male and female on male sex.  Amy and her boyfriend couldn't have sex with each other, but they could have sex with other people.  Both of them were NGRI, and I guess they didn't have money to pay to have sex with each other.  They were caught in the bathroom having sex.

When you move upstairs it is supposed to be a honor.  In fact, they called it the "honor floor".  When I was living upstairs I was afraid.  I woke up one night with strange men roaming the halls.  I don't know if one of the men was coming towards my room or not.  The man that was with him whispered loudly, "No, no Tom, not there!!!"  My heart seized and I thought I would have a heart attack.  I was so scared, and wished I could just go back to jail.  You know it was bad if I wanted to go back there.  The doors locked in jail, and they didn't lock at the Forensic Center.

Murder: Sharon and Onita

Sharon Hinojosa

Sharon is a murderer.  She killed her two children in a trailer fire.  She put them in their room and threw clothes all in front of the door and set a blaze that ended their lives.  I lived with Sharon for two months at the Forensic Center.  We didn't get along very well.  She was having sex with men there, too.  She had gotten herself a boyfriend out on Main Street, but she had a thing for an FSA named Matt.  She was good friends with Onita Higdon.  Onita had murdered her son's girlfriend when she had come to the house to pick up her child.  Onita was always on Sharon to stay away from Matt, because Matt was married and had two small children.  Sharon had a tattoo on the back of her neck that read, "Slow".  I think that was as true as you could get.  Who would pile clothes in front of a door, with their children closed in and claim that it's an accident?  She would also make bubbles on the side of her mouth when she spoke.

I tell you this, because Sharon deserved to get an insanity plea.  More than Sarah and Amy did, because she has a mental defect that makes her unable to understand what she was doing.  Even when she gave her remarks in court, they didn't make any sense.  She almost admitted that she was guilty, because she accused people of not giving her help.  She was somehow more important to the people at the Forensic Center, because she would write letters on me and stick them in the mailbox.  Sharon and I didn't like each other much.  She had a very weak mind and easily influential personality.  The staff there hated me and therefore Sharon had very little good to say to me.

One day when we were in the library, I asked her if she had children.  She said she had three children.  I asked who had them while she was here, and she said that two of her children were deceased, but the State had her youngest.  She said it like she had a huge secret that I didn't know.  Well, now I know the secret, and she killed her children.  Killed them, because the man she was with didn't want them.  The one thing the media doesn't know is what I know, he didn't want his either.  Again, I was sitting in the library with her.  She was in a rage.  She had set-up visitation with the father of her youngest and only surviving child.  He failed to show up at the visits.  She said, "After all I did, he fucks that up!"  I have to say that I don't know if she was talking about killing her two oldest or if she meant setting up the visits.  I don't know.

Murderers hang together at the Forensic Center.  Before Sarah came, Amy hung out with Onita.  That was after Sharon left.  Before Sharon came, Amy didn't really hang out with anyone.  Onita had fallen in love with Dave B., because she got strung out on the Adderall he put in the food, although he claimed it was the peanut butter she loved so much.  Sharon would come downstairs with her eyes glossy and wide and I knew that look.  I couldn't believe it.

Both Onita and Sharon did not get NGRI pleas.  Truthfully, Onita deserved them more than anyone I've seen at the Forensic Center.  Who holds a woman hostage for four hours for not coming to pick-up her child on time.  She then stabbed and killed the woman when she came back to retrieve her purse.  That is so unreasonable, and any medical personnel worth their weight could see she was insane.  She was touched when I lived with her at The Center.  Onita is a Black woman who killed a Black woman and for that you go to jail.  Sharon killed her sweet innocent children and you go to jail for killing children.  You do not get what you deserve when you kill a Black man.

It's who you kill that makes the difference and not what your mental state at the time you committed the crime.  Also, Sharon was a good whore, but she wasn't very slutty.  She liked life with one man.  Sarah and Amy were good whores, Amy was a prostitute and Sarah would do whatever it takes to get attention.  Remember, what I told you about the candy cane.  The Center is a money making enterprise that depends on the women there to keep the men happy.  We will get into that next blog.  When I saw Sharon coming out of the kitchen with Matt after 12 minutes of being in there with him alone, I knew she was working hard on that NGRI.  It never came, because she killed the most protected class of humans on this earth; children.  Not to mention they were her own.  That is unforgivable.

Onita Higdon

The Judicial Tenure Commission: A Joke!

Wade McCree

I had to make a sidebar so to speak.  I was just watching the news, I won't say which one, because that might start trouble for the news caster.  I keep seeing this Wade McCree guy talking about an affair he had with a young woman, which is the most normal thing I have ever heard of in my life.  The fact that his wife is showing up at court and supporting his philandering ways, is also not news to me.  Another scenario that I don't find unusual.  What I do find unusual is that the Judicial Tenure Commission is actually taking him to court for his extra-marital affair that they claim made him call in a few favors.  Here I am writing about judges who are handing down lighter sentences for men and women who prostitute in jail, letting murderers go free and making a mockery of the State's Judicial System, and every local station refuses to air my release and subsequent acquittal.  But too much baggage comes with my release.  If you understand what this comes down to it's simple, bad people are actually going free to kill, robbing and completely terrorize our society.  When you hear of a crime in both Wayne and Oakland County, think of the "sex for sell" scandal that I write about.  Then you will think Wade McCree is a patsy and a deterrent for the things I have to say.  The Commission is sensationalizing a quite usual situation to downplay an even more serious occurrence in the courts of Wayne and Oakland Counties.

Let me tell you this, I wrote the Judicial Tenure Commission a lot!  I wrote them and told them everything that the judges in my case did.  Rae Lee Chabot had court in a whole other courtroom in order to avoid the media in my case.  My mother was upstairs waiting for me to come down and I was in a whole other courtroom. Chabot told my lawyer that he was mistaken and that I didn't have court that day.  I was told that he was unavailable and some other man, who I didn't know resided over my case that day.  My lawyer told my mother that he was mistaken, and my mother pulled out the summons from her purse.  Not only was I duped, but my mother was duped and I lost my support for that day.  The Judicial Tenure Commission wrote me back and told me that I had to cause to grieve Chabot and that their investigation was over.

I wrote and told them that Martha Anderson, my next judge had tried to put me in jail for e-mailing a witness.  I never e-mailed that witness, but I had no reason to be banned from the internet in the first place.  I had sent Kevin Gross one message on Facebook.  One, not two, not three but one message.  That does not equal harassment.  Facebook is a Social Network that puts you out there.  Kevin Gross has never made a complaint about me.  Never said I harassed him and never wanted anything to do with the case.  After I wrote the Judicial Tenure Commission and told them what she had done, he testified at my trial.  It's just like the "Name Game", and if you find some slight to get around it you can get away with it.

Nancy Grant, Chief Judge in Oakland County, is on the Board of Judges at the Judicial Tenure Commission and is a racist.  I can just imagine that she calls in favors for making sure her pimping judges get away with prostituting.  At the Forensic Center they have computers and free notary services that I used on several occasions.  You can't make a complaint with the Judicial Tenure Commission with out a notarized signature.  When I first wrote them and complained, Kim was in Leo Bowman's court.  She told me that Grant had taken over his case load.  She was working to clear his docket of old cases.  Kim was mad, because she was scared that Grant would try something stupid and over-punish her.  She threw a fit in the tunnel and said, "NO matter what, he has to revert back to the original sentence!"  I wish somebody would have told Colleen O'Brien that when she sent me to prison, instead of over-sentencing me and giving me prison time!

Grant went to the Black man.  She didn't help anyone else with their caseload, but Bowman.  She wouldn't bother anyone else.  I bet she thought for certain that I would be either "turned out" or found guilty of the charge.  I'm sure the Judicial Tenure Commission thought the same thing.  That there was no way that Oakland County could ever let me go free, but I'm free.  Now I watch McCree doing his best to get out of a jam that is no big deal to most of us.  After Clinton, our society isn't immune to such affairs.  But we must understand that McCree is also a Black man, and subject to the same scrutiny as other Black men like Leo Bowman.  I blame Bowman far more than McCree, because Bowman at some point had a choice.  Either he went along with the racket or he held himself to the same standards he held judges Brown and Waterman.  McCree is a weak and conceited man who hurt his wife more than he did the bench, and nothing he did will have a long bearing on our society as a whole.

What Grant allows in her court puts our society as a whole in danger.  They allow very dangerous criminals to run the street.  They are a syndicate in Oakland County with muscle, a pecking order and other activities that can be cited as illegal.  Our Judicial System is literally running a whorehouse, filled with men and women who go back out into society and commit more crimes.  Tucker Cipriano was not released early for good behavior, because the average time for early releases is about two weeks.  He was released two months early!  That was a favor and nobody is given a free ride in OCJ.  He got that gift, because he was giving them something and I believe it was sex.  He went right back out into society and started using drugs and killed a man.  We would never know if that two months could have saved his family a whole lot of grief. 

Wayne County Jail is also involved in this scam and the courts there are handing out sentences for prostitution, too.  Only their court was taken over by a judge from the Supreme Court of Michigan, today.  I bet he does nothing about "sex for sell" in the courts.  Like Grant, he will try and control money and administrative duties that they say is their only concern.  Grant says that she doesn't question her judges decisions and her job is strictly administrative.  Could you call State Investigators or the FBI and tell them that there could be a problem with illegal activities in your courts?  I bet that is her job!  She has her own little secrets and they can control her, or she wouldn't get the job of Chief Judge in the first place.  What can you fix, if the whole system is corrupt?  They fail to see the uselessness of their efforts, because more than likely somebody is stealing all the money, anyway.  And what about that judge who got a year and a day, today?  I got the feeling that they started her ordeal to make room for Colleen O'Brien who lost a bid for a Supreme Court seat in 2011.  They stick together and would never call a fellow judge on things that weren't public knowledge.  What that woman did was complicated and private.  How could they have ever known, if they weren't digging for something.

The Judicial Tenure Commission is a joke.  It is a tool used to punish who they want to punish, and suit a need that is unclear to our society as a whole.  They are exploiting Wade McCree, in order to seem as if they have teeth to our public at large.  They use the news media to do it, too.  In reality, they are just a group of people who are used to target individuals who aren't popular, go against the grain or who are simply weak.  These weaknesses can be racial, gender based or social.  Then they use the racist media for their exploitation. They ignored my grievances, because I'm poor and Black, and they are probably scared.  Everybody has their secrets and the mafia usually finds out what they are and scares you with exposure.  Don't forget that horse head in the first "Godfather".  These people dig deep and call in favors.  When I worked at Sears, they would actually set-up sexual situations with new managers to get control of their merchandise.  I could only imagine what they do to people at the Judicial Tenure Commission.  Controlling that body would allow for a lot of money making opportunities and make for very strange bed fellows.

Tucker Cipriano

Tucker Cipriano

This is a murderer who was set free on an early release from the Oakland County Jail.  He left in December, when he was supposed to leave in February 2012.  In April of 2012, he killed his adopted father, tried to kill both his mother and brother.  The media tried to blame the murder on K2, but I had just left the Forensic Center and the Oakland County Jail.  I blame the jail, and when I heard that he was going for a psyche evaluation at the Forensic Center, I smelled a conspiracy.  I'm big on conspiracy theories.  In this case, I had more than enough evidence to be sure that Tucker Cipriano was being set-up for an NGRI.

First, because he was released early from jail, I figured he was a prostitute.  I told you that they not only sold women, but men in OCJ.  Seeing that Tucker got an early release, I immediately thought he was a prostitute.  The idea that he was a drug addict and was probably either high or coming down from a high when he killed his father, let me know he shouldn't be at the Forensic Center.  See, it is really hard to determine if someone is having a psychotic break when committing a crime.  In fact, they say that drug and alcohol abuse can not be a factor in determining criminal responsibility.  Only Sarah was drunk and high when she hit a man's car and caused a death.

You don't get anything for free with these people.  Tucker is a gorgeous man and would be an asset to the prostitution racket at both OCJ and the Forensic Center.  He has been at OCJ now for over a year now.  If he is a prostitute he is being sold.  If that's the case he is being prepped for a NGRI.  With a case like Tucker's, he has to give them a lot to get their free ride.  It's the system to let the prisoner be indebted to them.  They get them out of charges that will allow them to get LIFE, but instead give them a stay at Club Forensic Center.  Tucker would give them years of sex.

I didn't know Sarah when this happened, but she had already killed that man in that crash.  It was an accident, but she willingly got into a car intoxicated.  This young man went to that house with an agenda.  He was there before, and didn't hurt anyone, what had changed his mind?  Was it the drug or was it a mental illness?  Thank goodness he was found competent, but that doesn't mean at some point they will not make him incompetent again and give him an NGRI.  I have to watch this case to make sure this guy doesn't get away with murder, because I'm not sure if he would be the first.

Kumar is his judge, and I have never heard anything from her about giving lighter sentences for selling your body in the jail.  But when I was there this last time, her name was added to the list.  Even if she isn't a pimping judge, the Prosecutor can be crooked and except the plea from the Defense.  Not all the players have to be in on it in order to slight a case.  If the court-appointed-attorney is in on the deal and the Prosecutor then that's all that is needed for a Defendant to get "a hook-up".  A judge will be helpless to do anything if both parties agree, although they have complete power, they will know what's going on and ignore it out of "getting along".  

Let's hope that Tucker gets what he deserves and they don't try to wait for my blogs to blow over and give him some great deal.  Let's hope that Kumar isn't a pimp and will try him fairly.  Let's hope that he isn't selling himself in jail.  Let's hope...

Tucker Cipriano 2019

Adderall

Adderall is a drug that is used in the treatment of people with ADHD.  Its effects on the human body is very similar to that of cocaine.  This is important, because this is how the pimps at the Forensic Center tried to get the women there to prostitute for them.  It's just like the pimp waiting at the bus terminal for young women.  I told you that the deputies at OCJ were in contact with the Forensic Center.  So, I was targeted from the beginning.  Dave B. said he loved to serve the food, and would actually be angry if he couldn't.  It was his way of getting favor with the women.  When I first arrived, he worked mornings and put it in my grits and oatmeal.  When he went back to afternoons he put it in my macaroni and cheese.

At first, I didn't know why I couldn't sleep.  I was up all day and couldn't sleep at night.  My roommate at the time was Henretta, and she told me she couldn't sleep either and she was pregnant.  We would sit up all night and wonder why we couldn't sleep.  Henretta would go to the nurse, Sue, and get Benadryl to be able to sleep.  One night she said, "I feel like I hit the pipe."  That scared me to death.  I thought they were putting cocaine in my food.  I had no idea what it was.  At the time, I didn't believe in taking pills to sleep.  Sue would always try to push Ativan on me.  I was warned about Ativan before I got there.  I was told that it was a narcotic and highly addictive.  My friend told me that going in and out of mental institutions was the reason she was addicted to drugs and smoked marijuana.

While Henretta got up and down going to the nurses station for Ativan and Benadryl I tried to sleep and never got there.  I started to question the food, when Dave was off for three days and some other people were serving the food.  I felt better and could sleep some.  It seemed, however that David was putting a lot of Adderall in my food and I couldn't sleep more than four or five hours.  I did start to notice that after I ate is when the high came on.  I would eat like I was starving.  Then the person serving the food would watch me and smile.  He thought he had me, for sure, but I wasn't an addict.  I started a writing campaign and told governmental agencies and politicians that they were putting cocaine in my food.  That's when Stan told me that it wasn't cocaine.  Nobody would use cocaine, because it would be too expensive.  It was Adderall a prescription drug and was harmless.

The game was to give me Adderall and awake an addiction in me, but as I've said, I don't have an addiction.  Because Adderall has the same affect on the body as cocaine, people get highly addicted to Adderall.  In fact, Dr. Oz did a whole show on Adderall addiction and a young man actually took his life out of an addiction to Adderall.  All I know is that I couldn't sleep, and this last time I was there, I had moments of being invincible and giddy.  Telling my doctor was tricky, too.  If I didn't eat I was depressed, if I couldn't sleep I was manic and if I pushed the issue I was paranoid and showed signs of schizophrenia.  I couldn't win for losing.

I was so worried about my food being tainted, I wrote the prison.  They are responsible for making the meals that we ate.  I told them there were no cameras in the kitchen. I explained that the staff is putting Adderall in our food in an attempt to make prostitutes out of the new patients.  In the case of the old patients they were simply giving them what they wanted.  I said they can give it to them, but I didn't want it in my food.  Then I asked that they do something about it, because it could be misconstrued that they did it before the food came to us. Although there are cameras every place that patients were, there was no cameras to watch the staff.  It is staff they were needed to be watching.  They would roll the food into the kitchen and close the door and be back there for fifteen minutes.  It took them 15 minutes to open the door and serve the food.  After a while I just stopped eating.  I lost even more weight, and refused to eat unless certain people were serving the food. Dan, Dave B., Matt or Flueter could not serve me food.