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| Sarah F. Gaynor |
This person was the
hardest person to have to live with. Sarah Gaynor is a slut. The worst
kind of slut, because she used sex to get away with murder. Honestly, I just
didn't like her. Game can peep game and she came to me and talked to me one
night before bed. I think she was actually hitting on me, but she tried
to tell me about the peanut butter, too. See, at the Forensic Center,
it's beneficial for you to be crazy. They were putting a bit of LSD in
our food at times. It made Sarah have bad dreams. I don't know, but
for some reason I had bad dreams that night. I don't think Sarah mind the
Adderal, it is similar to the feeling cocaine gives you. She told me some
stories that mirrored the true stories of me and another inmate I helped write
an important letter to exit the Forensic Center. She was jealous, because she
was ready to go. I heard she gave the best "blow jobs". This meant
that Sarah had been informed thoroughly about me, before I got back
there. This was my second trip to the Forensic Center on a case that I
beat. Probably by Matt, security personnel that had a quickie with a woman that
burnt her two children alive, because her new boyfriend thought they were a
nuisance.
Sarah knew I wasn't
"insane" and that's what I meant by game peeping game.
Somewhere in my heart, I think she was trying to help me or find a friend
in me. Her case had her wanting to get close to a Black person, because
her BFF Amy was leaving, soon. What she told me next would ruin our
relationship, forever. She said she was involved in a car crash while
intoxicated. I think intoxication includes drugs and alcohol. She
had been found with actual drugs and alcohol in her system. A Black man
had been killed in the crash and burned alive. His family was mad she got an
NGRI. Not Guilty by Reason of Insanity. I was mad, too, because Sarah is
not mentally ill. Like Amy, they had just given her a free ride.
Her psychiatrist, a man who she spends 45 minutes with in a conference
room, is about to let her out. I don't know exactly what they do in the
conference room, but knowing Sarah it was probably some kind of sex act.
She also told me that
his family was upset she was at the Forensic Center and not doing time in
prison. They say there is nothing wrong with her, and I agree. As you
know while in prison, they made me live amongst those who are mentally ill, in
order to keep me out of trouble. It wasn't that hard, because they were
usually more involved with who they are not, to just leave you alone.
Unless they are worrisome, and there were a few of them. I was very
doped up and couldn't really tell the difference, anyway. But I know the
signs, especially those of a schizophrenic. Of all the disorders in
mental illness, it is the most tormenting. Seeing things and hearing
things that aren't there is horrible and you can't stand it. Medication
is usually not solace for schizophrenia. The people I know still have
signs and symptoms while on their medication.
Schizophrenics have no
control of it. A lying crooked psychiatrist would tell you there is, but
I know there is not. Sarah's medication couldn't help her act normally,
and she act real normal, and not like any schizophrenic I know. They aren't
social butterflies like Sarah and Amy, walking the gym holding hands and
getting dates from men who live there. They are shamed usually and bothered by
their illness and most of the time are solitary people. They don't stand
up in group and raise their hand and say, "I have bad dreams" But I
think Sarah is ready to leave the Forensic Center, one way or the other.
Mostly she wants to go to a step-down like Amy, but it's only been a
year. Except,"Vehicular Homicide" doesn't carry as much time as
"Open Murder". So, a year versus Amy's two is just about right.
When you talk on the scale of prostitution for a prison sentence...I guess.
So, one day when Sarah
was going through our DVD Collection, and asked who wanted to watch "Men
in Black" and Matt -the FSA that has sex with child killers- started
laughing, I lost it. I cursed her out, and called her and Amy sluts.
Told her that she was a murderer and deserved to go to prison. She
smiled, but two weeks later decided that she was terribly upset with me. She
used that an excuse not to go to groups that she wasn't attending, anyway.
Before I got there, and discovered that she was a fake, Sarah didn't do
anything she didn't want to do. All she had to do is have sex.
That's when she went to
every White racist employee and told them that I was threatening her. I
was being watched and they told Sarah if there was ever a problem that they
need to seek relief from staff. Nothing was going on, and the staff
started to get the picture. Then Sarah was in trouble, but not much, he
was quickly becoming their only money maker. Amy was leaving soon.
When Amy did leave, she started blaming all her short comings on Amy.
"I wasn't a nice person, because Amy told me not to talk to you all."
She lied, she did what she wanted; don't blame Amy when she leaves.
When it was Amy in group, while she was there that said Sarah wasn't
going to let go of our animosity. Amy didn't understand why Sarah was so
bitter and vindictive, because she was raised in a kind loving home and had all
she wanted, love and materialistically.
Sarah admitted she
suffered from what is known as hysteria. It's a personality disorder that
causes a person to seek attention. I can believe that, because Sarah used
our situation to get the entire staff against me and on her side. I
thought I was in a bad movie, like "Single White Female." Then
when Amy left, she came to everybody she had treated like the dork class in
high school and made amends. That included me, because we were all ready
to treat her really bad. If it wasn't for her fellow prostitute who
hadn't left, she would have never won President. Amy had the job before
she left. We had it set-up for another woman to get it, but a new woman
split the vote.
Although, we all knew
why Amy and Sarah were getting so much attention, we sorta could stomach Amy a
little more. She is a bit older and street wise, and understood that she
had been given a gift and not to "rock the boat". Sarah treated
us all like we were in high school. She was the Molly Ringwald of South
4. Remember, in "The Breakfast Club", she was the elite and
didn't have to treat people nicely or with respect. There was a pecking
order and she was at the top of the food chain. Amy tried to teach her,
but found the idea she was from privilege, to disregard her ignorance. I
really didn't blame.
When Amy left, they
tried to lie and say she was in Kalamazoo. The family of the man that she
killed is out to get her, so they say. Sarah kept up the charade and told
us that Amy was talking to one of her boyfriends at Kalamazoo. An old
patient, however, wrote to a women still at the Forensic Center. She told
her that she heard that Amy was with her. I hope this makes you
understand how the White race in Oakland County truly knows how good they have
it. They don't care, they don't see and Sarah doesn't understand that she
killed a man while drinking and on drugs. I told her that my friend
Chrissy got 13 years for doing what she did. She stares into space, and I
think and counts how many more men she has to sleep with before she can escape.
How many more Friday's she has to spend with Dr. Saragoza in a conference
room.
To let you know how
unaware Sarah is, or it could be that she is just too young. She told me,
"I'm sorry, I'm scared of Black people." I reiterated her point
and said, "There are some Black people that I'm afraid of. There are
also some Whites I am afraid of, too. Fear has no color." I
believe that Sarah is prejudice, and that's why she underestimated me. As
a 21 year old woman, she believed she could out-fox me. I'm a 42 year old
Black woman from the hood. That was very doubtful, but as I've said,
Sarah is not that smart. She uses her body to get what she wants, which
is sad but gets her that all important attention she craves. Just like
shaking her leg and hand when she drinks her coffee. Just another
fake-out.
I once watched her
simulate oral sex on a candy cane, when a staff member showed me some
attention. He was alright, but Sarah and Amy had been trying to get him
for months. For some reason he found me interesting. Sarah sat at a
table and did a imitation of deep throat. I was so shocked. See,
now Amy put her up to that!
This is what her local
paper had to say about Sarah:
I recently messaged
Sarah on Facebook. She replied, "What do you want from me?" I
answered, "did I ask you for anything" Then I blocked her. The woman
in the article said that she suffered from mental illness. Sarah has
histrionics. She'll do and say anything to get attention. That's why she is so
promiscuous. You can get a lot of attention having sex with a lot of men. She
was world renowned in the State run Forensic Center and a pro at the Saginaw
Valley Hospital where she had weekly appointments with the staff. I was with
her twice when Chuck took her; allegedly!
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| The scene of the fiery crash where Terence Dyer died! |
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