"So tired, but still ready to fight!"
I’ve been putting this on hold, but these people are really pissing me off. It has honestly been 48 years, going on forever. When I say until my eyes close forever, I mean it. The idea that there are people that feel that I am worthless hurts my feelings and makes me want to spit at the same time. I would go to the gym and there would be a prostitute walking around in leggings and a sleeveless shirt parading around the gym, like she is worth so much and she is worthless. I live on Huron across from Pontiac Central High School, and they ride up and down the street with loud cars with bad mufflers, and horrible exhaust. At first, I just ignored it, because it is a busy street. Then came the 18 wheelers riding on the far lane of the sidewalk. The truck is moving so fast and is so heavy it shakes the building. My neighbor lives close to the street, and her bedroom is three feet from the actual street. She feels way more than I do, and the first responders, EMS and Fire, just come up and down the street with their lights and siren blaring. I was thinking of writing the day and time the come through here. The cameras in my house make it easy for them to know when to kick up the noise to prevent me from sleeping. I swear I pray. I lay myself down and ask God for help. It’s been since 2009. Our house was on a corner, and we had a front porch. Underneath the porch was dirt. A dog dug under there once and had a litter of puppies. She left one, and I named him “peanut butter”.
Well, it was Pontiac Police then and they have this thing they did to people. They still do it. Skunks, they let skunks lose in your neighborhood, Like Ahmad Taylor the little drug dealers in gangs help them with this. They used fake fobs and go in my car. Crushing my wiper fluid, and turning my overhead light on to wear down my battery. They would throw food and raw meat in the yard. Then they would get a skunk from Animal Control and beat the cage so it sprays all over and will stink up every place they went that night. They go looking for the food, the food they’ve thrown in the yard. You wake up like a skunk had slept on your face all night. They’ve dug a hole beneath my apartment where I live now. I see cats and where you see cats there are usually skunks. They dug right beneath my bedroom. I wake up to the smell of a wet dog. I know that they know what's was coming, because in 2010, I had no idea what was coming, but the skunks came, anyway.. I was under the impression that you actually had to commit a crime. I had set my mind to do good, good the demons of Oakland County feared the Godliness of Jesus and because they had turned out so many had dare not give in to a nigger. I used to lie in bed and wonder why they had chosen me that made it 100 times worse for me. Even if they do like us their preference is for themselves.
I have a friend from school that used to call me for a ride, and I would pick him up to do his laundry and go to Kroger. He wasn’t comfortable, the cashier gave him funny looks, while I asked for his Kroger card. He’s a White man who has had trouble with the law, drugs and stuff. I had to tote him around; he didn’t have driver’s license. I had dropped him off a White female deputy drove by me. She looked at me nodded and smiled. She was telling me that was the kind of White man I deserve. Not a good decent one. Somebody had told her that I was less than I am, because I had been to prison. I had never done one thing to anyone. I refused to prostitute in jail. So, they dragged me back in and found a woman with the last name “Stalker” and put her in the cell next to me, and called her name all day, “STALKER!” All day that’s what I heard. She sat next to me and told me that she didn’t know why they called her that, she hadn’t used that name for 15 years.
They are relentless. They went through the files and found a woman named “Stalker” and picked her up, put her in a cell next to me and called out to her every five minutes. I know who I am, and I know who I will always be. That is not a stalker! The woman who took down a bunch of rapist, child molesters, murderers and pimps. I don’t care what you do. I will lie down with skunks if it means the Oakland County Child Killer is put away. I’m not the women you’ve killed to cover your crimes. My life is worth more than you can ever understand. Black women are worthless to you. Just something to use and throw away. I see myself as so much more. Telling me that I have a felony on my record and will have to “pay for my stay” is useless. I have $64k in student loans, two associate’s degrees, a bachelor’s and a master’s degree, an MBA. That means nothing to you, because I’m not seen as a human. I’m just biologically set up to make you money. No matter what I’ve done, where I’ve been I’m nothing to you. Demons are funny that way, but I come from God and in the long run, I’m going to defeat you by the love of Jesus. I just sit and listen to commercials and see ads on my feed and say the devil is surely busy, but God is the creator and destroyer and your time has truly come.
Amen
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